To be or not to be?

Shakespeare or not... it's an existential question I wonder to myself about so many things in so many times...

To be gentle or to kick someone's ass... to be polite or send them all to the deep core of hell... to answer someone or just ignore them... 

Unfortunatly I've walked a path of always being kind... why unfortunate? Because all I got in return was a nice kick in the ass when I'm no longer needed.

Well... perhaps there will come a day they realised they all made a mistake.

...

End of random rant! :3 stay nice people

P.S. damn... this blog is just too dark... gotta change this... new look on the way! I may be a "fallen angel in the dark" but I irradiate light damn it! XDXDXDXDXD

Lonely

Just that...
Alone.
This word used to scare me. So much.
Now I'm used to it.
Has my heart gone solid cold... or is it just that I'm afraid of loving?
Probably. Still...At nigh, alone, here in this huge house.... I'm lonely, scared, defenceless.
Why can't people just see that even though I say I'm ok... I'm not? I can't help it. I can't ask for help.
No matter how much it hurts... I can't ask for help. Not directly.
Two days ago... I was so happy with meeting all my friends. Being together, all of us.
Now that I'm alone again... this pain is just too much.
Am I caring for people that do not care for me? Or am I just to good at hiding how hurt I am?
I'm sorry, I really can't keep it inside anymore.
I'm tired of this mask of strenght, tired of pretending to be strong enough...
I don't think I'm strong enough. I'm scared! I want to be protected too! I'm tired of fighting on my own!
I'm taking off the mask... I'm sorry.. I can't fight anymore
PEACE!

Traída...

É assim, como um toque de ferro afiado, prostrado no meu peito...
A cada mentira, a cada engano... a cada distorção da verdade... eu sei a verdade mas não a quero ver...
Desejo ardentemente que ele confesse a verdade, desejo que me diga que nunca mentiu...
Mas eu sei... preferia a verdade crua a uma mentira barata...
Sinto-me traída porque sou sempre enganada. Que há com os homens? Estou farta de ser enganada! Farta!
Quero tirar este ferro do peito... quero alguém que não me minta! Alguém que eu ame e que me ame de volta...

Magimak Insa

O coração para e a alma rasga-se. Aumenta este tormento dentro do meu peito... Quero correr, desaparecer... esconder-me ou pura e simplesmente desaparecer.

A dor de amar é demasiado grande quando se ama só e em vão. É uma tristeza q perdura, corroí-nos por dentro parecendo queimar tudo como uma chuva de gelo. 

Coração? Eu preferia ter um pedaço de gelo.... o gelo derrete com o calor... mas permanece solido com a dor e o frio...

Swear It Again - Westlife

I’m never gonna say goodbye

Cos I never wanna see you cry

I swore to you my love would remain

And I swear it all over again and I

I’m never gonna treat you bad

Cos I never wanna see you sad

I swore to share your joy and your pain

And I’d swear it all over again

(…)

Cos in your eyes

I see a love that burns eternally

And if you see how beautiful you are to me

You’ll know I’m not lying.

White Knight

I want a knight in shining armor
A prince from a far away kingdom
An angel sent from above
Armed with looks and wisdom
I want to be loved and feel love

A man that stands his ground
That loves me and makes me proud
That wants to spend every minute with me
Together but still free
That makes me laugh but wipes my tears
Hugging me and chasing away my fears
That gives flowers when I least expect
Telling me I’m everything he wants to protect

So be my knight
Stay with me until the end of the night
Love me like this forever
Promise me we will always be together
I want to be your sunshine
And you to be my life for all of time!

Reading Material

Well it's been a wile since I talk about books so let me tell u about my two latest passions:
The House of Night series (Burned is the latest book) by P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast.
Telling you they are good is actually an understatement! They are fresh, funny and very good to read! One can easily identify with the characters!










Then you have Karen Chance's Cassandra Palmer Series... It's a bit more grown up... and believe me: Breath taking! O.O MUahaha... enjoy!

Loving from afar!

Tell me it’s not a dream,

That you are really there

If I close my eyes I can see your face

The light touch of your embrace

The reality that I dare not say

I feel that if I open my eyes

You will vanish away

Like a light shadow from my imagination

The night that gives place to the day

Leave without thought or explanation

How do I show you my heart?

How do I make you stay by my side?

I can’t

I’m not quitting the love I feel for you

I’ll just love you quietly

As always and forever

That is what love is all about I guess

To love someone regardless

Of what may happen, of everything,

To not see you suffer I’ll do anything

Make that smile of yours shine brighter

Hear the sound of your laughter

And know it’s ok

That things can be this way

It’s how I show you how much you mean to me

My only need it’s for you to be happy!

My Light

Shadows, light

Day and night

Is there prejudice in this time,

For you not to be mine?

We may be a thousand miles apart

But I’m wherever you are

Because thanks to you e feel alive

Like there is no more wrong

Just the way I love you is right

You are the thought that makes me strong

The voice that makes me go on

My heart and soul

The light I take everywhere I go.

Stars

As I look at the stars tonight

I wonder where you are

Do you also look at them at night?

Do you think of me too?

I wonder what I can do

When I’m so far away from you

This starry sky makes me wonder

How many lives they have seen

Have we met in another life?

Where you my brother,

A friend or my lover?

I wish I could see that stars with you

Stand by your side looking up

Hearing the sound of your heart

Making mine stop

With the sweet sound of your voice

Do you look at the stars?

I wonder what you think

The questions that you ask

Because in a sky so vast

No matter how many stars there are

It just doesn’t matter how far

You’re the star that shines best

Missing you

Yes, I missed u!
Yes, I replied to almost every single poem of yours hopping and wishing it was for me.
Yes, my heart skiped a beat when u told me u loved me...
Yes... my heart almost stoped when u told me u have a girlfriend...
What kind of love is that? I was never away! You know that I'm always here, always around you, always caring for you a loving you and always worring about u...
It's kind of hopeless of me, right?
It's king of stupid and idiotic, right?
There might be magic in our love... but there is no future to us, right?
Everytime I see you online, I was always so happy, always wished for your love... lying to myself, hoping you would come straight with your life, that you would be honest with yourself so you could be happy.
Now you are happy... with someone else at your side.
In the end, no matter how much magic we share, it's not me the one your with.

Talking to You

Stars fall from the sky

Wind can tell the truth in a whisper

To my heart it feels like a lie

Taking me deeper

Lifting up my soul

Wrapping my life like a stole

This night that covers our hearts

Unites more than it parts

Bringing closer this love inside

Taking away fears I can’t hide

Tears that I’ve cried

Words may exit my lips

Fly and dance around you and me

Every little flame it lifts

It’s a fire only we can see

Plain to the sight

Long to the need

A long lost plead

Giving us a way to fight

Heart and soul to move on

Strength to keep walking

I can’t have u gone

Not when we are still talking.

You better fight!

Yeah! YOU!
Yes, I know u will read this! U want something from me? U love me?
Really?
Then prove me!

Make me believe u! Fight for me!

In The End

Can a dream prevail?

Can love never fail?

Can you understand my heart?

This beat that won’t stop

This force that won’t keep apart

The love that beats distances

Fights with the unknown

Just to be your own

Will you ever understand?

These differences between us

Are too hard to comprehend

But still I will fight

Till I drop dead or make it right

Whatever it takes

You’ll be in my heart

Do you know how long I love you?

Do you know how long I searched for you?

Have you any idea how much it hurts?

Having people thinking I’m insane

Hiding away my feelings is not ok

Feeling lonely and hurt because of the pain

Because no one will ever say

The magic words of the day

No one ever knows that behind this smile

Is the pain I hide with the lie

That everything is ok

That everything will be fine

That even if I die

Things were supposed to be this way

Because in the end it was just a sign!